.a.little.more.than.normal.=]

soooo. mick's birthday was on saturday. here's some main events:

-Guys in hoods scared the shit out of us.

-Found out the guys in hoods were nate and jake..pissin us off. haha.

-Got stuff for some fun! =]

-(Alcohol)

-Went to Jake's Basement. Drank.

-Watched Avatar on our stomachs!

-Kissed a Girl. =] whoops.

-Mick smashed a zebra cake on my face. =[ lol.

-A whole butt load of people came.

-I yelled at Derrick. =S whoops.

-Mick got yelled at by Derek. haha.

-Nathan could stay!

-We all got super happy! lol.

-Than sad cause mick and i couldn't. haha.

-Drove home.

-Slept with my bestie.

-The end!

all in all. pretty kicking night. lol. bad parts.. we have picture as evidence of the not so good parts. lol. and boys won't let it go. =] lol.

.a.a.m.

..there's a hill we gotta climb. there's a treasure we must find. the two of us as friends we're ready to take on the world.

..we'll so who can touch the sky. we'll see who can jump that high. everyday is an adventure we're ready to take on the world.

..and thru all the ups and downs. i'll always be around. you know when nothing goes your way. when nothing goes your way.

you know i will..

i'll stand between you and your darkest fears.

you know i will..

i'll be the shoulder for your falling tear.

you know i will..

i'll be behind you til you're in the clear.

[.sh.]

idk.....

i don't know what i keep doing wrong. everything i do now just makes people pissed off. i try to talk to my one and only last night and be all cheery and then i go to leave and say goodnight darling love you! and all i get is a goodnight. then the next morning i try to talk to her, but she just ignores be and doesnt even aknowledge im there. and lets some other girl scoot in between us. she had this stupid little toy i gave her this morning...wasnt even like really important to me but she destroyed it...on purpose. well idk if she did it but she wore it around like for me to see. it's not the fact of what it was bc that toy wasnt a big deal to me it was just the fact that it was something of mine and she ruined it. :(

idk what to do anymore. im not good enough for anyone.

i give up.

am.

.thedaggerthatgentlylaidmysoultorest.

..he came back. i thought i would love the day where he wanted me back. but i don't. it's horrible knowing rather than not knowing..

now i'm all sorts of confused. i cant be had by him. i like who i'm with. but another feeling is making its way up to the top too..

but i'm going to get "it." i don't know what i'll do once i possess "it." maybe let go. maybe become attached. who knows.

a bond is being broken. hardly in realization. the weights to heavy not to notice. the serial ness of it however can go unlooked upon. idk if you get it. idk if you're trying. i hope you do. and i hope you are. bc i need you..

..and i don't want to keep getting hurt..

..i don't want to keep letting you..

..i want you to realize..

..i want a lot..

[.skh.]

.adam'stopten.

adam.

1. loves bubbles.

2. has a massive tongue.

3. has a massive head.

4. dances like a pro.

5. has pickup lines that will blow you away.

6. literally, you will walk away..

7. has sick running skills.

8. has lucious hair.

9. has a huge.. you know. :)

10. can only be defined as.. adam.

:) ...

She's as pretty as a picture
Every bit as funny as she is smart
Got a smile that'll hold you together
And a touch that'll tear you apart

When she's yours she brings the sunshine
When she's gone the world goes dark
Yeah, she's heaven on the eyes
But boy, she's hell on the heart.

am.

blue topaz heart

i used to have your necklace tight around my neck every morning when i woke up and held it tight every night when i went to bed.

some time passed and i just let it sit on my dressor. it would temp me every single day. and reminding me of someone i didn't wanna think of.

i put it on the other day and looked at it around my neck in the mirror. i pondered for a bit and took it off. i put in the garbage. it looks much better there.



am.