.idon'twantyouback.

it was fun, i won't lie. we laughed. we laughed. we laughed.
you kept reminiscing. you kept missing. you kept looking at me in that way you have. i knew it wouldn't be the best if i stayed. but i did anyway.
you kept finding ways to hug me. you even went in for the kiss.
unfortunately you were dismissed. "i'm sorry." you said. "sorry i treated you like shit. you didn't deserve that." i didn't reply.
you kept pressing for a date. promising you've changed.
i said i couldn't because of him. the shock in your voice made me realize that you didn't realize. but when you did you apologized. you said, "i'll always love you, just know that." the thing is..
you kept telling lies. you kept playing pretend.
and trust me, i forgave you, but that doesn't mean i still love you. sure, feelings still come around, but they are everything far from love. i'm sorry for that. i'm glad if you've changed though, unfortunately, you've scarred me too much to ever believe you. so, try it on a new person and they'll love you like i won't ever be able too.
when we were singing that song to each other.. what you didn't know is that i meant every word..

"fuck what i said, it don't mean shit now.
fuck the presents might as well throw them out.
fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack.
fuck you, you ho. i don't want you back."

i said, "fuck you, you ho, i don't want you back."
you said, "fuck you right back."


p.s. unforgivable.



sh.