everything is spiralling out of control.
i now only eat once a day if that. i'm just never hungry anymore and i don't know why.
i am always tired, no matter how much i sleep i just want to sleep more.
i actually meet tons of new and exciting people but when i sit and think all i think of is being with my best friend.
seems like people are trying to tear us apart again. even 2 of the closest people i know.
i just want to be where you are.
i want to run to you and sit on your bed late at night talking about my day,
or what is bothering me.
i want to go get taco johns late at night.
i want you to braid my hair once a week again.
i want to stay up and take pictures all night.
i want to watch scary movies and hold on to you so tight to make sure you're there.
i don't want to go through this transition without you.
going from seeing you everyday and every night to hardly ever is killing me.
that last long gaze we shared is imprinted in my mind.
it was like a help me.
don't leave me.
don't forget me.
am.