.edits.

i woke up this morning with one thing on my mind. chaos. i don't know what that means or if i should even ponder it at all. but i do. so many things go on in a persons life that just make it chaotic. but what i hate is when someone thinks that their life is so much worse then any one else's. everybody has their problems. some just choose not to be affected by then.

as i'm writing this i'm not sure why i even said some of the things i said. i guess that's what happens to a person if they wake up with one word on their mind. chaos.

sh.

..

"Hello," he said.

"Goodbye," i whispered.

sh.

game over.

okay. so when two people break up don't you think that they'd still some what care for the other person?

of course you will. well, certain people claim they don't but yet act all angry towards the other and then always tried to find any girl to flirt with. if you're flirting with her best friend then obviously you want to get her attention because you still care and want her to to be jealous, but really you're the jealous one.

get over yourself...mmmk?

the other other guy. stop like never talking to me and then all of a sudden start txtin me smile faces and saying you love my mom and doind stupid little thing to me....and then you act like it was all nothing. like it's okay for you to keep playing me like this.

well, i see past everything you're doing now. you can't fool me anymore.

game over.

am.

..blinded.

i cried. i missed. i wished. i wanted. i dreamed.. all because of you. because you left me.

but the truth is, it's your loss.

you'll cry. you'll miss. you'll wish. you'll want. you'll dream.. all because of me.

because you'll realize that i was the only person in the world who would never give up on you. and you'll be broken.

and i'll be ok.

sh.

it'll come back to get you.

i can see past your "innocence."

you may have everyone else fooled, but no. not me. i know who you really are. and who you are is a bad person. it makes me want to cry. it makes my sick to my stomach.

you could be someone so wonderful. the way you held me so gently. the guy you were around me. you were someone great. what happened?

why do you choosee to be this guy? why do you make hell for yourself? make hell for me?

am.

..few words.

i can't believe you.

hatred is burning through me veins.

i can't wait to look way better then anything you were looking for in someone else on the night that i get to be cinderella..

and you get to be that guy who could've been my prince charming.



!sh.

i don't understand.

what makes her so much better than me?!
how come you left my loving arms for hers? what does she have that i don't?

i gave you everything and you said you'd never leave me.you said i was perfect for you and you loved me because i was true and real and i actually cared. what happened?

what made you wanna leave? why didn't you trust in us? you found a new girl. and i look at her and wonder what she has that i don't....what made you leave me for her?

she now has you and i'm sitting here staring at her wishing i still had you.

am.